feels like you're running?

if it isn't rubbed in,it isn't pain.
innumerable investigations took me to the conclusion that it doesn't take much to hurt.whether it is,what we know as,ego or it is more of an emotional pain.And one very interesting piece of info I grabbed was that we can so lovingly injure ourselves,on our own that it looks like someone else did it!
A huge part of what I just said stems from the frosted,unclear facts that I base my life on.I choose*with most of my senses working* to face reality(if that is what it is) with a shadowed sense of working.It takes me a lot of time to figure out that I'm on the wrong track.
but nevertheless I DO figure out.then again I choose not to change much but to hold on/
It doesn't help much and it isn't even supposed to.I can only move fast enough to leave others thinking.I'm good at that.there isn't much sense,probably, in what I say.And you won't find it even if you look for it.
I think it comes as a part of being me.