It isn't this easy.

It can be a source of incredible amusement, how every now and then am worried about dying.And not only that.I also manage to come up with a new disease, or some fatal illness which I could probably have.This time, within a span of 3 weeks, I've thought of two such diseases.*It might be a result of sitting at home, unwell, for almost a week now*Such was my despair, that I actually got myself checked for one and now tomorrow I shall be going for another.The latest one, is mouth cancer.It was unnerving, to say the least, to go through a couple of images related to oral cancer.It would make you want to quit smoking right then.Unfortunately , one always figures that such things happen to 'someone else'. Nevermind that, but whatever you do, don't ever google mouth cancer images.they're scary!

I guess when you smoke you're constantly aware that something can go wrong with you or that you're always under some sort of life threat and at some point of time, this kind of gets to you.the way its getting to me.And ideally, one should give it up.But somehow things work out differently.You never end up taking health warnings seriously plus addiction is such a high that you hardly feel like getting rid of it.Am in no mood to quit.Just in case.But sometimes it does get tiring, trying to hide stuff, being scared, everything!Am just trying to push this 'unwell' phase away.And after having given up on monsoon, am hoping for winters!yea, already!

P.S today is 13th and not 8th as my blog would like me to believe!!