time for yet another fresh start,only that it doesn't seem so fresh anymore.I am kind of disappointed,not in you,in myself.I feel incredibly stupid for being taught a lesson I'd already learnt.was this actually the motive?I would like to believe it wasn't.I would like to think that my prayers were answered and that they weren't lessons in disguise,trying to prove me wrong.
I don't know if am right or wrong,all I know is that I'm stuck.Don't think I had the right to screw up things just because I wanted them a certain way.I am sorry.sorry for being so selfish.so immature.If there was anything I could do,I would y'know.but it only seems fair to let things be.
I dread loss.hate it.but I know I'm the one responsible for it,don't think I have any other choice but to face it.I wish I was capable of dealing with these things,but I guess I'll learn.
2 comments:
Its not you.
And, if it is you, be happy in your autonomy and ability to arrive at decisions, no matter how bitter.
Trust me, that require guts (balls).
And yes, cheers to the loss. We shall laugh about it before one of our senile summer seistas, may be before that, in our next conversation. (I m broke though!)
Love.
PS: write happy.
am waiting for the counter attack.blogs are under scrutiny.and this time I DON'T cARE!!
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