corona

Its getting a bit too much these days.I don't enjoy things anymore.There's this sudden realisation that is so uninvited,am not even prepared for it.Everything's so not going for me.I don't like this change.I have always maintained that change is good and for good but well I guess there are exceptions.
am sorry puff if we screw up your birthday again.Making you feel worse.Honestly I don't why I carry this baggage of bad luck with me.Its pretty boring 'cause you always know what's going to happen,the worse.I've become a sort of a maniac,need to take control of certain things and while I write this the thing that strikes my mind is that I need to believe in Me.And if that doesn't happen,nothing's happening.
I really hope I can do something to make everything better,I wish God would help me make things better.
And am sorry Baba.Everyone to be precise,am sorry everybody.I just can't live up to anyone's expectations and I wish that people(including me) would stop expecting so much.
Pretty sad.Hug to whoever cares.